Two worlds Living Side by Side

In my work as an art teacher, I have two schools. The first school, I have 3 days a week, and it is the perfect balance between the children of privilege, and the children on poverty. We have a PTA that has auctions and festivals to raise money for anything that we need. My PTA recently bought every teacher in my school a laptop compter to use at home, or during school.
My other school sits about 15 blocks away from my first school, and has a population of underprivileged students from very low socio-economic backgrounds. We have already been told by the principal ( in January ) that we are out of money, and that there will be no more print cartridges for the remainder of the year. At least twenty percent of the students at my second school have one to one counselors because of thier emotional needs. This is the second year that my city has talked about closing the school, but who knows if it will happen, since there really is nowhere else for the students to go. It is impossible to work in this split personality of a job and not see how money and privilege effect potential. I am the same teacher in both places, I put forth the same amount of effort, but I know that one group will walk a well paved road to their dreams, and one group will be walking uphill to their futures. What am I supposed to learn from this? If I believe that the universe has a message for me, what is it?

The first day of my life

Like so many unhappy couples, I am told, new years day was the day my partner and I broke up. We lived together for 4 years, and planned to get married. We began planning to get married 2 years ago, but it just never happened. Maybe we both knew it would never work out, or maybe it didn't work out because we didn't get married. What does marriage really mean anymore anyway? So now I am alone in the world again, and I am realising that I am 31 years old and I have no idea who I am. Sure, I have a great job, I have a sweet dog, I pay my bills...almost on time, but I have been in and out of long term relationships since I was 22 years old, and all I really know about myself seems to be that I am pretty good at giving other people what they want for 3 to 4 years. I lose myself in relationships, I think. In a relationship, I can be whoever you want me to be, but I am not really happy- and why would you know that? I probably give you no indication of my discontent. This blog is going to be about figuring out who I am, and what I want to do with myself.